It doesn’t get easier—saying good-bye
to those you love. You think once this
pandemic is over, you will emerge from virtual hibernation, and the world as
you knew it will still be there. But, of
course, it won’t be. Time marches on, nothing
will be the same. Favorite restaurants
have folded, stores have closed, live events have gone by the wayside, and people
have died.
Four people I loved died in the last
six months, not of COVID, but because of COVID protocols, everything is different.
In May, my friend Beth died. It wasn’t unexpected. She was in a long-term care facility in
deteriorating health. I hadn’t visited
her in quite awhile because of her precarious health and COVID restrictions. She was brilliant before disease attacked her
mind and body. We talked about books,
current events, mutual friends, Saints football. Over the 30 years of our friendship, we were
able to work together on projects in the field of early childhood, especially
targeting underserved populations and children with cognitive or language delays.
We presented at professional conferences. We took several trips—to Europe and
to our respective hometowns so we could see where the other person grew up. Beth, I, and several of our friends used to
get together regularly, never missing a birthday or holiday observation. Fortunately, Beth’s daughter and husband were
able to be with her at the end, singing hymns and reading her favorite Bible
verses aloud. There was no memorial service
because of COVID.
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Beth eats Thanksgiving dinner with us |
My college roommate Brenda came to
visit Ricky and me in March of 2020. Brenda
and I were like sisters during college.
We had been talking about her coming to see me for years, and finally it
was reality. From their home in Virginia,
Brenda and her husband Roger embarked on a tour of the Deep South. Unfortunately,
there were other realities in play. Brenda
had lung cancer and was enrolled in an experimental drug trial that had her
cancer in remission. Brenda and Roger
were coming to our house from New Orleans.
Following Mardi Gras 2020, New Orleans was experiencing the spread of a
novel corona virus that was killing people.
Ricky and I felt that Brenda would be especially vulnerable to a virus
that attacked the lungs, but Brenda and Roger seemed oblivious to the dangers
of COVID-19. (This was before wearing face
coverings was mandated or recommended.)
Roger and Brenda wanted to see the city.
Ricky drove us around Shreveport, stopping at tourist attractions that
had few other visitors. We ate outside
on patios and took them to one of my favorite gift shops, The Enchanted Garden,
so they could see handmade Mardi Gras masks and meet the mask artist who was
also Krewe of Highland Mardi Gras King when I was the queen.
I later learned that the experimental
drug stopped working in June after buying Brenda three good years. Roger reported that Brenda declined rapidly
after that, dying in August. I found all
the photos of Brenda from our friendship and posted them for her family and
friends to see. Brenda was always
laughing in those days.
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Brenda and me, March 2020 |
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Amy, Teresa, Lynn, Brenda at college graduation |
In September 2005 as a result of
Hurricane Katrina, Ricky and I met Jolanta, Elizabeth, and Christopher when
they were evacuated from the V.A. Hospital in New Orleans where Jolanta was
working when Katrina hit. In those days,
it wasn’t unusual for staff members to take their kids to work when a hurricane
was predicted, and no family members were available to care for the
children. Jolanta and her two children,
Elizabeth who was in her early 20’s but had some special needs and Chris, a
high school senior, were stranded in the V.A. Hospital for days after Katrina
hit. Jolanta and her colleagues who
worked in the cardiac unit bagged patients who had been on vents to keep them
alive. Chris and older kids foraged for
food in the hospital, while Elizabeth played games in a secluded room with
the younger children. Finally, the National Guard evacuated the V.A. Hospital, and Jolanta and her two children ended
up at Overton Brooks V.A. Hospital in Shreveport where my husband was a registered nurse.
When the van carrying Jolanta, Elizabeth,
and Chris arrived at the V.A. in Shreveport, Ricky called to say he was bringing
them to our house so they could stay in our guest cottage until other
arrangements were made. Jolanta, Elizabeth, and Chris stayed in our backyard cottage for several weeks until they found a nearby
house to rent. Bill, the dad of the
family, had been working in Washington, D.C., but he soon arrived in
Shreveport, too. This was the beginning
of a close relationship between our two families for the next 16 years.
Bill and Christopher returned to New
Orleans after Christmas 2005 when Chris’ high school reopened, and repairs
began on the family home in Uptown/Carrollton area of the city. Jolanta and Elizabeth remained in Shreveport
for a year. The V.A. transferred Jolanta
to the Shreveport V.A. to continue her employment. Elizabeth accompanied me to work, alternating between
the two early childhood centers where I had offices. Elizabeth blossomed in Shreveport. My friends adopted the family and grew to
love them, too.
When Jolanta and Elizabeth returned
to New Orleans, Ricky and I visited their home many times over the years. The family, plus Bill’s mother, evacuated to
our house when another hurricane threatened. We went to New Orleans when Bill’s
mom died in order to distract Elizabeth from the preparations. Elizabeth visited us in Shreveport and loved
it. When she was in New Orleans, Elizabeth
called me every week. She would keep the
rest of her family abreast of events in Shreveport. She was possessive of that role.
Tragically, three members of the
Haney family are now gone. Bill died in
2018 after a long illness. We attended
the funeral and grieved with Jolanta. I
talked to Jolanta afterwards, and she said it was so hard to go on without Bill,
but she had to be there for her kids, especially Elizabeth. Then in August of 2020, I talked to
Jolanta. She said she had lung cancer,
but her prognosis was good. However, in
September of 2020 as I was driving back to Louisiana from Virginia, my husband
called and said Jolanta had died. There
was a virtual funeral. I sent a video in which I talked about my friend, the fascinating and totally unique Jolanta.
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Jolanta and Elizabeth at the TajMo concert |
Now, unbelievably, Elizabeth too is
gone. Ricky got a call from Chris this
week. Elizabeth had some type of medical
crisis and despite her brother’s rushing her to the hospital, she didn’t make
it. Elizabeth had medical issues. I knew, in a sense, that Elizabeth lived on
borrowed time. Her mom and her doctors
had brought her back from the brink more than once. This time, it was not to be. I talked to Elizabeth the Saturday
night before she died. She seemed happy. Chris had her in a routine that she
liked. Elizabeth said the young woman who was
her companion and helper took walks with her, sat on the porch swing with her when the weather permitted, and did some coloring and other "work" with her. She talked about her dog Lila and cat Sarah. She seemed the same as usual, now she is gone. Rest in peace in the arms of your mother, my beautiful little friend.
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Elizabeth on her porch swing in New Orleans |
I have no words of wisdom or comfort with which to end this essay. They’ve all been
said, especially this past year. We all know that we are not guaranteed a
tomorrow. Love your friends and family,
embrace the now, live in the present, it’s all any of us have.